Is age nature’s curse?

I’m feeling quite reflective today.  Why is life so fraught with dilemma’s? :

On one hand I met a guy around my age. 41 to be precise.  He’s so hung up with his ex wife and 5 kids and his newly discovered half-siblings and his shift pattern and his associated baggage, that he’s forgetting that he has a girl here that quite likes him!  I know he quite likes me too.  But! I’m getting pretty frustrated waiting for his elusive text or phone call or, dare I say it, mention of another date?  He’s so wrapped up in his 41 years of drama, that he seems to have forgotten the simple things in life this week….me!

On the other hand, I met a younger guy.  He wont’ tell me his age, but lets assume he’s 26yrs.  He’s just not old enough to have all that shit going on in his life. Life is simple for him.  No marragie, no kids, just work and shagging!  ”You wanna meet up?”  What for, I say.  “A few drinks, a shag?”  I really dont even see that as an insult.  Jeez, why IS life more complicated than that? 

And here I am.  In my mid life crisis (?).  Thinking, I can’t possible go shag a guy young enough to be my son.  Can I ?  Can I really have a night or two of lust and care-free pleasure?  Or is that not allowed in our age-obsessed society?  Why do I feel it’s so wrong?  He’s old enough to make his own mind up, isn’t he?  And I guess I’m old enough to know better…..

To be honest, I ‘d rather the care free pleasure with Mr Baggage!  But I can’t see him getting over his damn hang ups anytime soon. 

Tra- la- la- la- lala- laaaa   Hmmmm!  I guess I’ll just go shopping………….. :S

24 ‘Man’ push ups!!

That’s 3sets of 8!!!   Not 24 straight off….lol

Considering 2 months ago I couldn’t do the second one!! 

I’m pretty pleased with myself

No more goal jeans! :)

No, I didnt lose them or set fire to them.  They are no more a goal because they fit!!!!!!!!!!!!  Wooooo hooooooooo!!!

This is what I said in Feb:

That leaves me 17lbs to lose by Easter.  Ok, that’s still achieveable IF that 2lbs(that I think I’ve lost) shows up after my cheat day!   I’m NOT being a SLAVE TO THE SCALES, as i know I’ve lost inches.   So I should really set myself another ‘inch’ goal, shoudln’t I?   Ok, by Easter, I need to be fitting into my size 10 Gap jeans.  These are my new goal jeans as they are about 2.5 inches from doing up at the moment!   Gosh!  I’ll be over the moon to be wearing those by Easter

 Well there it is in black and white (I love blogging!).  I didnt reach my weight goal but I sure as hell reached my jeans goal!!!!  I’m so chuffed with myself today.  I’m going to eat myself the promised chocolate easter eggs on Sunday.  I haven’t had a chocolate for 6 months!  But you know, I bloody deserve it now…..haha!!

Where are my celebration gorilla’s……ah!  there they are

 

Now I need to go buy some jeans that don’t fit me!!!  lol  I’d like to drop another dress size.  I’m a comfortable 12 now, but would like to be a comfortable 10.  Yes, I know I now FIT INTO my size 10 gap jeans, but they are old and probably stretched.  Perhaps I’ll go buy some new ones…….I must admit, the scales do my head in!!  It’s so much nicer just to feel good in my clothes again

So, for my next goal:  I want to wear my hipster black jeans (that I also just tried on and they fit! But they are too muffin top to wear!) by the 26th June when I go and see The Killers in Hyde park!  Now that would be just dandy!

Weight lost 27lbs ~ Weight to lose 21lbs (ok, I still need to log it even though I realise my weight goals are a bit pointless!)  I must add that I do a lot of resistance training and I definitly am more muscly all over than I was.

See you in June then

My ‘gym’

My kitchen diner has fast become a ‘gym’ over the last few months.  I hired the elliptical but that’s going back next week, so I’m looking forward to getting into some turbulance training for my cardio!

I did step aerobics this week as I havent done it for months.  My calves are killing me!

Anyway……

Just thought I’d take a pic before the elliptical goes back.

 

And yes, there are TWO scales for the weigh in!   Not that I’m obsessed or anything! lol

Fed up!

25lbs lost ~ 23lbs to go!

Lordy, when will this weight loss end!!!   The pounds are coming off so slow these days that I’m getting fed up with being on a bloomin diet!  It’s not the diet really, its’ the knock on effect it’s having on my social life.  My social life is based around drinking and eating!!  So I have to limit myself on the amount of days that I go out with friends.  Or if I go out I have to watch what I’m eating or drinking. 

I know that if I want to be fit and healthy then I need to limit these things anyway, but, you know, I really ENJOY going out for a nice meal and drinking a bottle of wine.  It’s never been an every day occurance, just once a week…..or maybe twice

So, I went out a couple weeks ago (last week of Feb) and had so many events going on mid week that I ended up lapsing for almost a week.  I then told myself I wouldn’t be out again till the end of March, the 28th, a friends birthday party.  But, I think I’m going to have to break that and go out tonight, otherwise I’m going to go insane……………

Damn!  I wish I didnt have to have this devil/angel argument.  Yes, I want to get the weight loss over and done with and going out with reckless abondon is just going to prolong the agony.  But.  If I stay in for another week………oh Lordy…..I’m going……..

I can’t wait to be slim again and not have to worry about it.    That is for sure……………

All change with the routine!

Arggghhhh!!  Weight loss has slowed down.  I’m getting frustrated that I haven’t hit the 2stone mark yet.  I started this blog 6 months ago and, in essence, I started the weight loss plan 6 months ago. 

OK, I had December off!

OK, I spent 6 weeks doing it all wrong! (Namely I didnt log my food intake at first)

OK, I had more cheat days in Feb than is possible for someone on a ‘diet’!!  So it’s quite unreasonable for me to expect to lose much (any) weight that month!

 

Ha!  I’m feeling better already !  I love it when I can come here and talk to myself!! 

 

Ok, so in terms or hard dieting and exercise I’ve probably only been good for 4 months!!  lol

That sounds better, doesnt it????  Yes Tusc, it does!

However, I have noticed something today that I need to address.  Namely, I’m letting things slip into my diet that I’m not counting as my calorie intake:

Eg,  

I dont count olive oil that I add to roast veg

I don’t count xylitol sugar or skim milk I add to tea and coffee

I don’t count apple sauce I add to pork chops

I don’t count bread crumbs I add to chicken or pork

I dont count xyltiol gum that I chew

I don’t count supplements that I take (I read on another blog that someone was counting this and it never entered my head!)

So look, this is the deal:

As you lose weight, you need less calories, right?

sooo, even though I’ve been keeping my calorie count to under 12oo per day, I figure that I’m adding another 100 cals per day with stuff I don’t count.

So, what I think I should do, is drop down by 100 cals per day so that I’m actually eating 1200!   In other words, I’m going to stick to under 1100 per day. 

Hopefully that shift will see me dropping off some more weight in the next few weeks.  It’s 4 weeks to Easter and I’m way off my goal 36lbs by Easter(currently only lost 23lbs)  so I really, really, really wanna speed things up!  I know I won’t lose 13lbs in 4 weeks, but cracking the 2stone and possibly 30lbs by Easter would be great!

I’m also changing my circuits and intervals around.  You know what I think?  This body needs a shake up!

So really, I just wanted to log the change in my routine from today……

watch this space………….

Pull up bar ~ part 1

Well, I took the plunge and bought a pull up bar! 

I didn’t think I’d be able to do one pull up, and I was right!  haha!

So I emailed my lovely Gym Junkies friend and mentor, Vic, and he advised me to start pulling whilst standing on something and to improvise with a towel or rope and do some body rows.

So, I can do (a few) body rows, with the aid of my trusty skipping rope twisted round the bar!  And I can do ab raises, although the ab straps are a bit pointless awkward.  I’m also practicing pullups while standing on a chair to support most  some of my weight!

I’m sure as I lose weight, and get stronger, I will be impressing Sarah Conner!!! 

Here is the demon bar.  Looks like some kind of  torture contraption that you have to endure before you enter my bedroom!!  Beware guys!!

My waist is 29.5 inches!

Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

There’s something about moving from 30 to 29.5 that is extremely gratifying

That aside, I was never built to have a waist over 30inches!  I’m a pear!  I’m petite!  My waist should be 26/27, nowhere near 30!

So, today I’m happy to be in the 20’s again ~ hoorah!

No more thoughts of diabetes, heart disease and whatever else crap diseases you get from storing fat around that area.  My heart is a fat free zone!! 

BTW I’m attributing the fat loss around my middle to HIIT training!  HIIT rocks!!

The scales lie………..

Ok, so I’ve decided never to throw my scales away again.

But, that’s not to say that I dont think they lie.  They do!

I’m being sedated for a root canal on Friday so they weighed me on their scales at the clinic today………..

I AM 6LBS LIGHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

WTF!!!

That’s just crazy isn’t it?  That’s 6lbs lighter WITH clothes on! 

Now, if there was a reason you shouldn’t pay too much notice to what the scales say, that is it!

So when I get to my goal weight on my scales, am I going to actually be 6lbs lighter?   The point is, it really doesnt matter if I’m happy with how I’m looking.

There you go JEN – hope you’re reading this

Don’t throw away your scales!!

Ok, I agree, the scales lie.  But why do people keep on saying you should throw your scales out?  They might lie, but they still measure progress up to a certain point!

Ok, I agree if you have 10 – 14lbs to go and you are busy working out and building muscle, then you shouldn’t be bothering about how much you weigh per se!   How you look and how your clothes are fitting is far more important.

But for those of us that are still struggling to get that far down the line, the scales count.  Ok, they are frustrating when they dont show a loss for 2 weeks.  Ok, they are puzzling when you lose 3lbs one day and put on 1.5lbs the next day.  At times like this, it’s good to measure too so you can offset the doom and gloom! 

But the thing with those awful scales is that they keep you on the straight and narrow!!  They can stop you putting ON weight!

Just a short story:

I threw my scales out years ago.  I didnt want to be a slave to them.  I didnt want to think about how much I weighed.  I wanted to be FREE!!  And guess what?  My safety net went to pot!  I put on more weight than I’ve ever put on in my life.  Yes, it was gradual.  Yes, it took ‘years’!  However, when I got on the scales 6 months ago I COULD NOT BELEIVE how much I weighed!  I put on 3 stone without even thinking about it.  I still wore my old jeans, albeit a bit tight, but NOWAY did I, in my wildest dreams, think I weighed so much.

So now, no-one can tell me to chuck them out.  This time, even after I get to my goal size, I’m going to check up on myself at least once a month, probably more!   As far as I’m concerned, getting a handle on 7lbs is far easier than 50lbs!

So keep the scales!!  JUST DON’T BECOME A SLAVE TO THEM!  Don’t trust them!  THEY LIE!!   Don’t rely on them.  But get to know them.   Don’t winge and moan if you can’t see a loss.  Measure too!  ;)