Losing weight or quiting smoking – which is harder?

I’m trying to decide. 

Quitting smoking was hard.   I remember feeling very depressed and out of sorts with myself.  Afterall, I was trying to change a habit of (almost) a lifetime!  (24 years to be precise).  I didn’t socialise for 5 weeks.  How could I, all my friends were smokers too!   I ate like a bitch!   One night I was (this) close to pulling my hair out, literally!!   But it got easier.  Day after day the cravings got further apart.  Week after week I felt the benefits.  After 3 months I was over it.  I knew I’d never smoke again.  And now, 4+ years later I still think it’s the best thing I’ve ever done in my life! 😀

Until now!

Weight loss is a different kind of angst.  At least with smoking you can stop it all together.  All or nothing kinda thing.  With eating, you can’t stop!!  If you do, you die.  So life becomes one big compromise.  EVERY day it’s on my mind – how much weight have I lost?  How much further to go?  Can I motivate myself to that cardio/circuit/walk?  How many calories in this?  I can’t eat that, too many calories?  Even on ‘cheat’ days I’m wondering how many lbs I will put on tomorrow!   And this has now been going on for near 6 months!  It’s mental and physical torture!  Yes, there are times when I relax and stop thinking about it, but it’s not often.  I’m either planning my food or  my workout.  Eating or exercising.  Jeez!  Sometimes I feel it’s relentless!

Ok, I can see the benefits.  God, I feel sooooooooooooo much better than I did 6 months ago.  And if I feel this good now, just how wonderful I’m going to feel when I lose another 20lbs is going to look something like this 😀 😀 😀  However, if anyone ever tells you that losing weight is easy, trust me, it aint!!

In fact, I think I’ve just decided that losing weight is harder.  Simply because it’s going to on for a few months more. 

Someone please remind me NEVER TO GET FAT AGAIN!  I can’t bear to go through this shit ever again!!  lol

Peace! 😉

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~ by tuscanystone on February 13, 2009.

2 Responses to “Losing weight or quiting smoking – which is harder?”

  1. I completely agree, losing weight is WAY harder then quitting smoking. In fact, I did both together, at the same time and struggled more with the weight then I did with smoking. I smoked for 10 years. 3 months into my healthy journey, I had lost 25lbs and decided to quit. I went cold turkey and haven’t looked back – the not smoking was easy compared to like you said, the constant struggle of eating/or not eating.

  2. Wow Jen, Kudos to you! Quiting smoking AND not being able to eat must be hell on earth!!!! The only thing that kept me sane when I quit was the fact that I ate loads! But hey, if you’re going to do both then killing 2 birds with one stone kinda saves on going through it twice? Congratulations honey!

    Here’s to the new, healthy us 😉

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